I've completely gone into some sort of "hiding"ever since yesterday, cancelled plans and sulked. I'm not one that takes pride in feeling sorry for herself, but there comes a time when there is nothing left to do but pull yourself away for a little awhile and just be alone with yourself. I think that is one of the most fearless relationships that you can have. It's important to be able to give yourself a check, do some journaling, and deal with the junk that you can't sweep under the rug anymore.
So, tonight, I've taken pride in sweatpants, pizza from Bravos, grey's anatomy season two, some light reading, and my guitar. Oh! and some Adele to go along with it. I'm pretty sure she writes a song for every mood.
I went out last night with some friends to just celebrate a typical thursday night. I was actually, surprisingly, not much in the mood to let loose and go wherever the wind takes me. I had to work this morning so I was much more like a parent I felt like, trying to make sure everyone else wasn't whoring themselves out to whoever would take it. To be perfectly honest, I'm a little upset at how easily girls "give it up". I'm not talking about sex here (although it can apply), but the simple attention and affection from ANY guy is enough to make a girl fall to her knees (not literally I hope) and somewhat imagine a life that goes further beyond the next game of pool. Have we lost our dignity and respect as females? Are we becoming THAT desperate for something more that we are willing to compromise out personal morals and beliefs for the sake of a cheap booty call?
I'm not excluding myself from this, because who doesn't enjoy the occasional dreamy look or arm around the shoulder to make them feel like they "belong". But what is it going to take to realize that our dignity and worth does not come from a man who can't even stay faithful to the one he is with?
One of my fave pictures from the night.... love you dre!
